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well, earlier today, i was thinking of writing about a movie that ‘moved’ my mind ever since the first time i saw it on HBO(while it was on Mega TV-which was clearly years ago) and was recently played again on Cinemax(i think..). no the movie does not involves ghosts or any of its kind, but rather sumthing more deep. and watching the movie once in a while gets my brain to generate questions, which i think, for the meantime, is quite answer-less.

however, my blog today restriced me to write about it now for i have something that i think i like to share here, and it is all about what happened today.

today was a very short day for me. i rise from my sleeping place(in front of the telly lah) just to wake up listening to my mother mengamuk at me even when i could barely open my eyes. after she ended her speech with a reminder for me to go semayang, i saw the clock that its almost 6. and as i was still struggling to grasp everything around me, i saw my father came in through the door, who just happens to came home from work, thus making me realise that its already 6pm!

huhuu~

and the sad thing about this is i tertuang my zohor and remembered that i promised to teman my mother balik klang to opah’s house..to tell the truth, i am a man of my words, so when i myself broke my promise to my mother today, i found myself feeling bad the whole day, where in this case, the whole night actually..

so now im trying to sleep as early as i could today(which i find hard to do), and going to bed far earlier, hoping that i can wake up earlier tomorrow.

so until next time, good night, everyone!

wish me luck..!! =>

p/s: is 4am in the morning early enough..?? it is still dark, though…huhuuu~ =3

well, here i am. my first blog using a dial-up connection. so much for being online 24/7.

its kinda true for what people say; "too much of a good thing is bad".

..well, not quite. actually its more of like ‘not too good’.

my point here is that having the access to the internet anytime is better that all the time. its not like ive got sick of the internet, its just that eventually i got too much of it all at once. and as a result, i got tired and quite bored of it until ive got nothing to do.

come to think of it, its kinda fuuny how i left my computer on non-stop since it got accessible to the internet for almost two weeks. lucky that the room was air conditioned, tho, or else it’d be toasted by now..(lol!!)

experiencing what some others already have at home a long time ago, being able to reach the internet 24hours a day, is a joy to me. its been a while since ive last thinked about changing to streamyx, but everytime the topic reaches my parents, they’ll say that it’ll just be a waste of money..and i guess they’re right..for now..maybe..ntah la.

so at the end of the day, all i can conclude is this: thrust your parents. all 100%. although sometimes you’ll think that they’ve got no clue about the topic, im pretty sure that their experience of living and the advice that comes with it (although if it could be miles long =P) beats any other knowledge of yours.

think about it =D

p/s:feeling kinda weird when your blog involves the parents..im sure its sumthing good tho..i think.

*smiles* =3

well,what can i say..it finally came to an end. not yet actually. but almost. thats it. there’s nothing else to do. the last piece of the puzzle is near to be put to its place, completing a job not even close to worth it if counted materially…it is actually over..i can’t believe it.

i’m talking about this magazine work here, of course.

to tell you(referring to you,the one reading or if none available, this dumb blog) the truth, i myself am not so sure on what i feel about the whole thing actually. sure, its exhausting, tiresome and adding the fact that i’m not at home this few days..no doubt on that one..so supposedly i should be happy that its over, right?

wrong.

okay. i’m not denying that i felt rather relieved when all the work suddenly ‘lifts off’ to WhoeverCaresVille..true. but note that i still felt that i’m gonna miss sumthing. thats what makes everything goes wrong.

i’ve been through this situation a few times already. and got sick of it. sick of being a moron not knowing which is better in this "cuti time"..take a pick;being at home @ just stay in college.

choice#1 : go home - if i go home, it’d be just like every other weekends. i go home, makan, tgk tv, tido dpn tv, then come back when sengal’s on its way to reach me. tho i love being at home, the food, the sofa n all, not to mention the telly n piles of games, ironically there’s somehow nothing much i could do at home. and its all my fault that it just so happens that i’m a pure nocturnal(is that how they spell it?nvm.) and all the others have early bedtime. shoot. i get bored, go online till subuh, smayang kejap, then jatuh terlentang tido. okay, of course, at home i can go wander about wif ppl 24/7, heck i’d do that for my friends. but how many out there who’s willing to do the same? damn i’ve got to keep reminding myself that other ppl do have their own life, and i need to stop being selfish..and i need to live with it. continue. now lets look at the next option.

choice#2 : stay at college - if i stay in college, there’s the unlimited wireless internet connectivity at hand; ym-ing, friendster-ing, surfing and downloading as much as i want, whenever i want. i’ll have people around me. everyday will be different than yesterday. but on this specific holiday, thats definitely not the case. people prefer going home, so whats the point? not to blame them tho, for they chose to not cherish-ize(is there even such a word?!!) or making the most of the times being with other people who’s not blood-related. no offence, but, duduk rumah for the whole two months?? b**i tak lebam ke??? i know i’ll eventually transform into a human form of ubi, just lying around waiting to rot in my skin. i cant live like that!

i’m not here saying that i’ve experienced the future, nor that i’m a complete idiot for saying what i think, its just that i am afraid that i might regret(quite a heavy word here) when i look back(thats only if i get to do so) upon the younger days of my life where i dont spend much time with the people i hoped to. by then, it’d be too late to do anything.

so as the conclusion that i may state here is that i am afraid. afraid to be alone. alone by myself. my sad self. so for you the one reading this post, i’d like to praise the alMighty Allah, for you, my friend, are given the blessings to be ditakdirkan to read this piece of thought of mine, and thus having me to thank you. thanx.

now let me continue my life. =3

as for today, i woke up with this really big load in my head. it seems like i unintentionally ‘tertidur‘ at home after all. then it hit me so fast. i rmmbrd that i’ve got loads of work waiting for me back at the college. the whole work is due this weekend, and i’d doubt myself i cud finish all of them on time. well, like it or not, whatever that needs to be done, needs to be done. maybe i’ll just have to overclock myself this time. =p

yesterday was great. it is one of those days where you can’t get enough of yourself. i mean, its one of those times where you know that there are people that remembered you, cared for you, or at least are thinking of you on that special day. you’ll feel the true meaning of existence, that your life in this world is not ignored. and for me, dat day was yesterday.

maybe i’m too emotional or too much exaggerating this fact. but for me, i like to be remembered. its great to know that ur life is not just another ‘idle’ addition to a person’s long list of connections.

i’ll admit that it is hard to keep in touch with everyone, but trust me, it really is. people oftenly say friends forever in wishes, on cards, sending smses ocasionally, but how many of them really mean it? how many of those ‘friends forever’ are friends forever?

growing up around various types of people in my environment, i somehow manage to observe different types of individuals. like the saying goes "banyak udang banyak garam…". thats life for you..

my 20 years of life has been everything but suck. i’d definitely like to thank the almighty god Allah for that, for he has given everything i’d ever need for this life to be fulfilled with the perfect balance of joy, tears, laughter and everything in between. alhamdulillah..

for all of those who ‘accidentally’ stumbled into my life, i’d like to thank each and everyone of you that made my life possible. there’s absolutely no way in this lifetime could i ever repay you guys for just being there, knowing that this wan ezariq iman wan asri actually does exist..

cheers to all..!!

hip,hip,hurey..!(3x)  << sorak hari sukan ala2 juden haha~ <<

hurmm…its been quite a while since my last blog post.like i’ve said earlier,my life is kinda dull at the moment,other than the fact that i have to stay right here in college helping the magazine’s redaksi group finish the anual mag.it seems like i cant stay put even for a sec.. =P *padan muka sendiri!!*

all 8 members are supposed to be finishing our work by the end of this week,but looking on how things progress,i’d bet that we still have a loooonnng way to go.. *sigh..*

btw,while i’m here doing some publication work,i cant deny that i do think about those who are enjoying their brains out along this holiday..its ok though,’coz eventho i’m at home,i’d be quite sengal laa,for many of those out there are still in their examination week or ‘busy’ enough to get out of their couch in front of the tv set…..owh,and plus,2nd college just finished installing its wifi around the compound so thats quite a reason for me to be here,online,24/7… =3

so,of course,for all of you out there,esp my friends that i adore too much,i’d like to announce that my ym is(supposed) to be online(and available)for this few days..

addme atyahoomessenger my id >> to_ezariq << huhuhu~~

this one is gonna b long,very long,as this is my very own new category.

the intro’s like this.recently,just right after i’ve done with my finals(which i noe the results will suck.damnit.)i borrowed a floormate’s collection of animes-which i’ve been holding off for so long to avoid total addiction.to cut it short,i was ‘moved’ by this series called "bleach" which i’d watch almost 24/7 alone by myself.i’ve heard about it before,but never knew thought of watching it because of the silly title.of course,from the title,i guess no one could ever get what the story was totally about.so hear me giving a brief summary about this "bleach" im talking about.

its a story surrounding a group of ppl who can sense disturbing’spirits’,both good and bad.and eventually,they get these awesome powers to cleanse the evil spirits by killing them and also the ability to send the ghouls wandering around the human world,avoiding unneccessary disturbances.and they continue their adventure..

brief huh?

anyway,the thing that i wanted to highlight here is that about the question of ‘those other things’,on so called ‘the other side’..abt how the look like,how they live,what do they do,or do they even exist? i’m not here to stand up as a sceptic nor a believer.its just that its been bugging me when ppl(esp malays) hv their own belief on the do’s and dont’s to be safe from those things.we(malays) always have to control what we say n do whenever n wherever.it is wierd to me,watching both asisan n western ghost movies,where i noticed that those ‘matsallehs’ just slambe badak talks abt those things,even at odd places.there’s also this difference in the type of ghosts,where ‘the westerns’ seems 2b more violent while ‘the asians’ prefer the psychological approach.n i came up with another question for why are there no similarities between ghosts,inter-nationally?is it because they cant travel?or can they?what are their activities?what do they do,specifically..? ok.orang tua2 always say that they r also a type of almighty god’s creation of beings,like us,they also want to live,just on diff time of the day.how is this is truly true?n if it is,how do they go about?do they communicate with each other?do they breed?eat?drink?do they have different heirrachy for diff individuals?do they increase in numbers when ppl die?or do we have no connection to their kind at all? heh~actually there’s more questions i’d like to ask about them,eventually mounting up since like ever,but to some extent,there’s still this bit of fear of "what if’s"..so no real answers were replied.actually the subject have been really bugging me since the beginning of the year,but i tried to keep it aside,avoiding,just in case.anyway,now that i’ve no more studies to focus on the time being,i’m being rather ‘konon berani’,in pursuit to get some answer.

i don’t know.i think this post is not enuff.nnt i’ll add sumore.. =p

is it really just the fear of the unknown?if if is true,lets say IF we get to ‘berkenalan’ with the other side,does the fear gradually be gone?

for those who knew better,please,guide me.i hope i’ll always b on the right path.

wallahu’alam..